New phone. Revamping my blog. Osama

So I got a new phone. It is an android phone which means I now have the blogger app. So....any of you read my myspace blog....you know that I used to blog like everyday.... So with this new phone.... I will be blogging as often as possible about topics as random (out even more so) than my myspace blog. The only thing that sucks about blogging on blogger is that I don't have as much of an audience as before.... Pssh.

So... Moving on...

Let's talk about Osama... They got him. I'm glad that they did... But what does that mean for our nation as far as any retaliation from al quaida (sp) is concerned? All those ignorant people out celebrating last night didn't think of that did they. And I know it its entirely too much to ask for that we be notified of any attacks headed our way, but come on! Let a sistah know!

That is all.

faith...

i haven't blogged in over a year... feels weird. i don't even know where to begin. so much has happened in the last year. my life is upside down. or is it now right side up? have you have let yourself fall head first into a swimming pool with your eyes closed and just let yourself fall. its the weirdest feeling. you get all disoriented and you cant tell which way is up. its kind of freeing just letting yourself go, not knowing whats going to happen... but then there is always that moment of sheer panic where you didn't think you are going to make it to the surface in time... that's how i had been feeling. like I was letting myself fall into all of my responsibilities and fears not knowing how things are going to work out... sometimes i was so wrought with anxiety that i was crippled. it made me do and say things that i wouldn't normally do. but i have Faith. and that Faith keeps the anxiety at bay... just knowing that God has a plan for me is all the reassurance i need. its hard to explain... its just something i feel. I never really blogged about my faith... because honestly... i never really knew where i stood... there was a moment of clarity for me a few months ago... i almost lost a dear friend of mine. I was so afraid and the only place i knew to turn was to God. I spent an entire night praying asking Him to heal my friend. As scared and sad as I was the whole time my friend was in the hospital... I never really cried. And if you know me... u know I'm a cryer... I felt overcome with emotion... but more crippled than anything else. So, after an entire night of praying... asking for a sign or hope or strength or anything... I slept for a couple hours and i woke up and put on a TIVO'd episode of Joel Osteen- a preacher from Texas... The first thing he said was... "God wants you to know that everything you want in 2011 will come to you... you just have to put God first" Instantly I felt the world lift off of my shoulders and i just started crying and crying. With just those words...I knew that God was speaking to me... and I knew that from that moment on... I had to live my life the way God wants me to. God performed a miracle for my friend. Seriously. And its because he, and many people around him have God on their side. I needed a sign... and i got it. Who else is ready to put God first?

A Novel Idea: Part One

So, I'm writing a Novel. I'm also going to be blogging along the way. So, today is day 1 of my writing.

First, I wanna talk a little about what it's like to be an artist and feel like u have no outlet.

I've been a writer and a musician for as long as I can remember. I've written tons of song that haven't ever been fully produced and a million pieces of literature that has all but disappeared. However, Lately, Ive been feeling really anxious and nervous and I couldnt figure out why. Then I sat down at my piano and wrote the bridge for a song I've been stuck on for months now and IMMEDIATELY i felt better. I decided that I need to release some of this creativity inside of me because the anxiety it was causing me was affecting me in all aspects of my life. I couldn't even concentrate cause my mind would just be racing all over the place with thoughts and ideas and RANDOMNESS!!!

So, tonight I was reading something that Stephanie Meyer wrote about her process of creating the Twilight Series (which I love.) She said that when she was writing, she created her chracters. People she dreamed up and then LOVED and asked them WHAT HAPPENED in order to create her masterpieces. So, I'm doing just that. I've created a character and her setting. I've created things that happened to her in her life and a mindset for her. I created relationships for her and a starting point in her life.... And I asked her.... What Happened To you?


I'm not going to give it away at all. But I hope to carry you along with me in the process and deliver you the end result. So... LETS GO!!!

get it together

ooo i wanna vent so badly, but i dont even know if the person i'm venting about reads my blogs! grr.

bottom line.

people need to stop drinking so much and get their lives together.

you're still here

Build me up
and leave me in a
castle made of stars.
fill my cup
with promises of stone
and golden smiles.
i know sinking stones
will crumble over time.
that's my worst fear;
you're still here.

when i'm breaking down;
you're still here.

i float faithfully.
i fall willingly.
no turning back.
no time to pause.
i'm looking through
past the rise and the fall.
that's my worst fear (the fall);
but you're still here.

when i'm breaking down;
you're still here.
when i'm all a mess;
you're still here

Convo on facebook

Angela Victoria Walton Prenuptual agreements?? Pro or con... Con... Isnt it just like banking on things not to work out??

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Cristian Abisaí Mendoza

no

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Cassie Hicksonbottom

I'm on my way to bed, BUT I totally agree. A prenub is pretty much a predivorce! Why get married if ur planning for it to end.

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Bobbie Ross

Pro. While most people don't plan on getting divorced, things happen, and a prenup can protect you. Also, prenups can help to protect things you worked hard for before you got married.

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Angela Victoria Walton

i feel where ur coming from... but my thing is... If u need "protection" from this person (which is what it narrows down too) then why marry them in the first place?

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Bobbie Ross

You don't know what can possibly happen down the line. People change. While we'd all like to believe that marriage is forever, that's not always the case. Also, it's possible for some people to be so ~blinded by love~ that they don't realize their spouse has/had ulterior motives in why they wanted to get married.

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David Christopher Huey

I think it's meant more for the person who has more to lose in a potential divorce

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Angela Victoria Walton

truth. i was just talking about the fact that people change over time being the culprit for so many failed marriages... but i came to the conclusion that... although people change over time... you have to be willing to work through the troubles NO MATTER what. otherwise... dont get married! AND... if people rush into a marriage causetheyre blinded by love... then i say... YO BAD HOMIE. lol

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Angela Victoria Walton

David- what i'm saying is... in singing a prenup... im agreeing that this may not be forever...

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Angela Victoria Walton

signing*

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Bobbie Ross

And, while I agree with you, in signing a prenup, I'm ensuring that in the event something DOES happen down the line, I'm not paying anybody's alimony. LOL!

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David Christopher Huey

It's ok, she'll get ya on child support

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Angela Victoria Walton

LMAO!

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David Christopher Huey

Or he, depending on who gets the kid

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Angela Victoria Walton

o blessed child support.

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David Christopher Huey

Best part is when the girl suckers the guy into paying child support for 18 years and not even telling him that the kid isn't his

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Bobbie Ross

Also, Angela, there are certain things that just cannot be worked out, in my opinion. So, yes... when you get married, in theory, it's supposed to be forever and death till you part, but there are definitely certain things that can be deal breakers (at least for me).

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David Christopher Huey

OR when they're on Maury povich and the guy finds out it actually is his

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David Christopher Huey

Dealbrealers... Like if your spouse decides to cross dress and eventually want a sex change somewhere down the line?

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Angela Victoria Walton

@BobbieKay as a child of a severed family... i guess i just want it to WORK!! lol

@David lmao...yeah and even the girl looks surprised that she pinned it on the right guy.

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Angela Victoria Walton

that is a deal breaker..

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Angela Victoria Walton

Dealbreaker... the guy tries to kill me or my children

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Bobbie Ross

Cheating is a deal breaker for me, too. As is any sort of abuse (be it verbal, emotional, or physical).

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Angela Victoria Walton

doesnt cheating make a prenup null and void or something like that?

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Bobbie Ross

Not always. It depends on what you put in the terms of the prenup, whether or not the court finds that you've forgiven the person, etc. There is some legal analysis involved.

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Jennifer Ries

Con. It shows that people are already placing more value in their possessions than in their relationship. Marrriage is about sharing life, love, and good times. If people are already concerned with what they may have to share or what they may lose, then they need to stop and reevaluate if they are really ready to commit or if they are with the ... Read Moreright person. If they are worried about how their future husband/wife could screw them if they eventually got a divorce, then they obviously don't trust their partner. Which begs the question... Why are you marrying someone you don't trust? Don't get married until you're willing to lose everything for that person you love. Then, a prenuptial won't even be an issue. If it still ends in divorce, then at least you didn't condemn it. I think there would be less divorce if people would really stop to think before they got married. Also, there wouldn't be as many divorces if people weren't so damn selfish. We have the freedom to be as selfish as we want when we are single. If you're ready to get married then you're ready to grow up and commit... For better or for worse.

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Angela Victoria Walton

BOMB JENNIFER! bomb

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Jennifer Ries

Wow... That was one hell of a rant.

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Bobbie Ross

A prenup doesn't necessarily mean that you're condemning the marriage from the start. Just like purchasing a life insurance policy doesn't mean you're condemning yourself to an early death. Or getting car insurance doesn't mean you're condemning yourself to getting in an accident. That's basically what a prenup is: an insurance policy.

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Angela Victoria Walton

Bobbie. its different than unavoidable things like death or an accident... Marriage Failures are 100 percent preventable if the right steps are taken.

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David Christopher Huey

So you're saying you can prevent the cross-dressing sex change dilemma from occurring?

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Bobbie Ross

No kind of failure is 100% avoidable because people are not perfect - only God is. And you can only control what you do - and to a certain extent, what your kids do. You can't possibly always foresee and control the actions of your spouse who is a fully functional adult.

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Angela Victoria Walton

if u get to kno someone well enough to marry them...and use logic not lust... u know if ur marrying a wierdo or a murderer or a player or anything that could break the deal...

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Angela Victoria Walton

@ bobbie. then work it out... u said those vows... now WORK IT OUT

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David Christopher Huey

or just utilize the key word: Compromise.

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Bobbie Ross

How many times have we seen specials on the news where someone up and kills another and the neighbors/family/friends/whoever are saying, "He/she was so nice! Such a good person! I never would've thought they'd do anything like this!"

I'm not saying that you, or anyone in this thread, would marry a murderer. All I'm saying is that shit happens. No one is completely infallible or predictable. A prenup serves as an insurance policy that you hopefully never have to cash in on.

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Bobbie Ross

Sometimes people do things you don't expect them to.

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Angela Victoria Walton

truth

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David Christopher Huey

I wish a prenup could protect me from a marrying a murderer.

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Angela Victoria Walton

in the situation of a murder... a prenup is probably gonna be void... so... there is no point in it... once again....lol

LMAO @ david.

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Bobbie Ross

Hopefully, we will all marry someone where a prenup won't be an issue.

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Angela Victoria Walton

yeah. well im not getting married... haha.

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Bobbie Ross

LOL I just used the murderer analogy as an example of people not knowing what a person they thought they knew was capable of... (wow, that was a convoluted sentence).

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Angela Victoria Walton

lmao. i love convoluted sentences.

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I want to start a Band....

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=591237498456&ref=mf

I've decided to work on my singing. I've always wanted to be a singer. I honestly dont think im bad at it, i just need some work.

Ideally, i'd like to start a band... drummer, guitarist, basist and moi.

its the perfect way to combine my love for music, writing and being on stage...

who wants to be in my band???